Stage Fear!!!

"His palms are sweaty, knees weak, arms are heavy

There's vomit on his sweater already,

mom's spaghettiHe's nervous, but on the surface he looks calm and ready

To drop bombs, but he keeps on forgettinWhat he wrote down, the whole crowd goes so loud

He opens his mouth, but the words won't come out

He's choking, how everybody's joking nowThe clock's run out,

time's up over, bloah!"

Replace all the "Him's" and "He's" with "her's" and that would be me before,any stage performance or an interview.Anyone who is Anyone gets the jitters before going on stage,but for me Its almost like a whole crowd is chanting inside my head as to how miserably I shall fail and why I will not be able to get anywhere in life and there is an echo of hollow shrill laughter as soon as I enter the stage.It is unnerving and disorienting.

I know I sing well ,but I have never ever been able to gather my guts into my rather tiny stomach and give a performance like it mattered.

But,I think the tide is turning ,What goes around always comes around .Unbelievable yet,true ,Among a rowdy batch of 300 people I managed to give a fairly good performance of "ZOmbie" by The Cranberries .For the first time,I knew I was going to get mobbed and people will mangle me to death anyways and the,there was no fear.

I had the best time of my life.It gave me a sense of achievement and an unbelievable high better than any trip on weedash .

I think I am on the college band.

Its called,"90% on the rocks"

Chilling in Hell

Peeved rite now.

IPL

Chennai Super Kings,Deccan chargers,Mumbai Indians, Kolkata Knight riders,Delhi Daredevils,Rajasthan Royals,Kings 11,Royal Challengers ..
Eight teams,128 players ,one brilliant Indian summer that promises nothing but pure intense action and some kick ass cricketing action.
Its a new format,appealing at once to the young and the old alike.Where else can you see the two most illustrious opening batsmen open togather-Sachin and Jayasurya ..they may not have age on their side but they sure have some experience making that connection between the white ball and the sweet little spot on the bat.Two master strategists in the same team,Ricky Ponting and Saurav dada .India and Australia's most successful captains,enough to give any rival captain a nightmare .Imagine the sweet sound of Dhoni saying,"Well bowled Murli" ..Just the thing every cricket crazy fanatic would love to hear,and of course ,S ymonds and Gilchrist making some very beautiful music togather.Women Ahoy!!!Lets face it,The most drool worthy team has been handpicked and paid for by the very pretty Preity Zinta.Whew!Some gift her boyfriend got her huh..What was he thinking anyways.
though all of the above sounds just perfect to all us cricket crazy Indians,I am still grappling the problem of choosing my favourite team among the eight as all my favourite players seem to have been interspersed among the eight teams.Most people must be taking their decisions based on the parochial instincts but I believe that is just not the way to choose your favourites.

MAY THE BEST TEAM WIN.

And the curtain falls.......

TODAY ,Last day of Exams ,Same yet so different .No college or school to come back to after these vacations No safety net to protect you from the fall anymore.No more paid vacations.Time to ring in a new and hopefully happy life .Here's to the most memorable three years of my life and big Thank you for all who have been,all who are and all whom i hope will always be there for me . To the craziness,stupidity,laziness and fun of it all..TO LIFE IN ALL ITS COLORS AND HAPPINESS .

P.S:At this point,ALl I can say is,"F$#k !! What a Ride !!!!"

Gossip!!

Over the last one year,I have spent most of my day time at the NCC canteen next to my college that ensure smoked food,if not smokin' food .Smokers chill madi out there..First look and one would immediately imagine one of those shady gambling dens from the 80's Rajinikanth Movie.But,It has been home away from home.Refuge of the troubled and the bored it has been.If heresay were to be believed,The Symbiosis Law college students refused to move to their spanking new campus if the college authorities didn't get NCC Canteen along.
Just like most canteens,there are a few people who make it the place it is.Raghu Bhaiyya,Chandu and Babu bhaiyya ,These people play the faithful manfridays ,turning up at your beck and call for your Suttas,Chai and Poha,Chicken Sandwich et al.
Chandu is the over friendly, ever smiling, 22 year old(I still cant believe it) who waits on us patiently even if we sit there the entire day and order just a chai .Today When I came back to base at NCC after a miraculous exam ,We saw Chandu trying to flirt with a random chick in the canteen .All of us burst out laughing and like all great gossipy stories ,This rather unbelievable bit of information came up .
Chandu has three Women in his life.If you want to make it a little filmy then Four,The fourth being his mother.The first one is supposed to be the true love of his life .He is waiting for her to turn eighteen so that he can marry her.The second one has apparently been given a flat by Chandu ,the motive being questionable,which I somehow cannot believe for the life of me .The third one was the biggest surprise,She is apparently from some batch of a really reputed management college which is a part of my college .
How much of this is true and how much of it false,I leave it to you to decide.Out of pure curiosity,I asked my friend How she came about this really disturbing piece of information
.Apparently,Chandu was advertising for all to hear and My friend has Documentary Evidence
to prove all the above which i shall post once i land my dirty paws on them.

Ramblings....

This is how it feels like to be in love.But then of course this may not be love.
Its really funny how,Tradition and society demands of you to "know" a person well before you fall in love.What if you know the person for a month or so and yet have this immensely,intensely,unbelievably strong gut instinct that howls and hollers,"This is right","This feels right".What if the person who always remained barely in the peripheries of your existence is suddenly plopped into its very core by a series of seemingly innocous circumstances.What if you feel like you have reached that fork in the road,where you think being with this person or not is going to make a difference to your entire life.When society and friends ridicule you for being so naive about falling in love overnight and you still have the urge to reason with them and come out trumps.When all you want to do is to be with this person and just cannot get enough of them.When you truly want this other person to be nothing but happy even if it is at your cost and even if it means having to let go of the one precious thing you found for yourself.
But yet,we choose keep our silence .Is it wrong to agree and accept that you have fallen in love,just because it is "TOO SOON" to accept it.